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A New

2007-08-03T09:02:00.000-07:00

Weon our vacation stillwent to Glacier National park http://www.nps.gov/glac/ it was amazing and so beautiful. I was with my husband and my boys in our car. We were behind my husbands brother and fatherand dog Dudeand a close friend who is also visiting from the mid-west. So we caravan up through the steep cliffs and around the lush foliage, we made many stops, we take pictures of the sites that touched our souls.

We made the first stop at the bottom of the park. We stopped at a pull off spot and climbed down through the path that has been worn into the rocks and brush by visitors. When we emerged from the pines there in front of us babbled a crisp clean river, we could see to the bottom. The river traveled wisely through the jutting rocks in such a way that instilled quiet in us. Dude found his place in the shallow pool near the edge and drank his fill. My brother in-law insanely jumped in to the ice cold water, like the rest of the crazy fools who were jumping in. He had to jump 2 times so my husband could get a picture.

We drove some more up around the loop and through a tunnel and got to the visitor center at the top, it was packed. We paused for a quick lunch of make shift sandwiches made while standing near the back of the car using the trunk as a picnic table. They couldn't have been better! We took pictures of the tiny trees at the top of the mountain. The trees don't get much oxygen so they only get about 4 feet tall. They look like bonsai pines.

Gotta break for now post more later.

Yesterday was wonderful.

what does vacation mean????

2007-08-01T22:06:00.000-07:00

We have been on vacationun-homefor a week now. I am tired, spent, and just plain rung out. (If I could make the period capitalized I would). We left our lovely city in the mid-west on Thursday July 26Th last Thursday. We being my two little very well behaved boys and my husband and myself. We packed ourselves into thenewPrius my husband bought for me as a surprise for our fourth4Thwedding anniversary. Just in time to save us much $money. In my brand new I-want-to-keep-my-car-in-the-garage-so-nothing-happens-to-it Prius. We have driven 2216 miles on this trip so far each mile dustier than the last and it is only half1/2over. Half of the miles being up hill, we are in Montana on the very western side in the Rocky Mountains.

All Mountains.

Our mpg average is 43.4 not bad. And my husband is having fun trying to out do himself each time he drives. This is interesting, however, it does slow us down quite a bite. He read some tips on the internet about how to get the best out of your Prius and it is not speed that is the key.

Back to our trip, We left on Thursday the 26Th at 10:00a.m. and stayed in Murdo, South Dakota who knows where that is? then kept driving on Friday and arrived here in Plains, MT not many people know where this is either at 11:30p.m. My husbands father lives here, the reason for our visit. My husband has been working this whole time, even in the car on his lap top while we were driving, and while we have been here in MT. I have been working as well and

I AM Tired!

I have been THE parent on kid control sincebirthwe left our house Thursday. I will have some down time tomorrow to do laundrylucky me!

Right now they are playing poker at the bar. They being my husband his brother and a close friend and my husbands father. My little boys and I watcheda boot legged not worth the trouble copy of Ice age 2. And now they are asleep and I have a chance, the first chance all week, to check my email and the balance on our bank accounts. The first time and it is 12:00a.m. here 1:00a.m. where I'm from so I am hurting. I am so bitter right now I could just cry. I want to have a relaxed vacation not keep my eye on my boys in a garage warehouse sized with cans of gas and parts of cars and a car up on a lift, and computer parts and people shooting BB guns and people drinking and getting stoned, while I wait for my husband and his father to be done with work so I can sit an watch them all smoke, while I try to think of ways to reprogram my boys to know that smoking is bad for them and not cool even if their grandfather and uncle and every other person who stops by smokes. The grown up people can do what they want, I don't want to spoil their fun, I just don't want to have any part of it and I certainly don't want to have my sponge brained boys of 3 and 4 years old to see this stuff.

I certainly didn't imagine this is how our vacation would be.

Sunday

2007-07-15T05:57:00.000-07:00

Good Morning! I am trying to talk myself into being up and happy about being up. I would like my husband to wake up without me asking him to get up. I would like him to hear the boys and roll out of bed not roll over, away from the boys entering the room. I just want to go to sleep before ten10:00o'clockand wake up when I wake up. I just want to sleep is that so much to ask?. To bad for me, I have kids, this sleep thing is no longer in my control.

I am destined to be tired. Why does this idea stay with me?

I have just had a revelationhit me like a brickI can!control my sleep I just have to go to bed even though I have choresyuck don't want to do them anyway to do. I just have to go to bed even though my mind is still full of all the things the kids and I have done today and have to do tomorrow. I just need to stop when the clock hitsBam!9:30p.m. and lie down and sleep. Then all I have to do is wake upGulpbefore the kids. I'm not even sure when they really wake up. They wake up and play in their room and I wake up when they start to get loud. (I assume this is not that long because the boys don't last long during the day when I leave the room. I will take two steps down the hall toward the basement to change the wash and the boys are arguing about who had what toy and who gets to play and who pushed who and why did you hit me and I didn't hit you you took my toy and on and on and on.)

Breathe. Calm Down. Like my mental health doc says, "tell yourself 'I am OK' when ever you feel stressed" I should not get stressed just sitting here typing, but I am so emotional I am right back in the situation when I type it. I hope putting it down here will let me not carry it around all day. Maybe I will have less baggage to carry. Grab your coffee and lets toast to hope and control. Cheers!

Big day???

2007-07-11T20:53:00.000-07:00

Here I am at 10:54 p.m.past my bed time by almost an hournot about to go to bed. I am wiredtwo and a half cups of iced coffee at 7:30 p.m.and my mind is racing so fast I may not be able to clearly communicate here. I feel like it was a big day but when I started to type I thought we didn't really do much, returned some library books, had class at the YMCAboys had class I when for a walk.Hung out at grandparents house for a few hours had lunch with them, came home youngest napped, I taught my oldest to readMat sat. Sam sat.watch some superman cartoons then back to grandparents house for dinnerfresh home made pesto.Kids played in sand box dug in the dirt. We finally got home at 9:20two hours and twenty minutes past bed time. oops!So I just updated my ipod play list for my workouts and now I'm off to bed. See no big day, what was I thinking?

morning

2007-07-11T06:21:00.000-07:00

My youngest"I peeeeeed mooooommmy"woke up this morning covered in pee, it was to early for me too think past "clean pee off my boy". I slowly dragged myself out of bed, down the hallall of ten feet but it felt like a mile.I removed his shirt and washed him off, put a clean good nite on him and brought him to bed with me. That was my first mistake, my husband and I share a queen and the two of us fit perfectly. If you add a squirming three3year old who can't decide if he is hot"I waant thaaa coverrrrsssssss"or cold"toooo hot mooooooommmmmy". We don't fit happily. I think my husband got two and a half more hours of sleep than I. I finally ended up on the couch with my sweet son trying tokeep my eyes openwatch Dr. Seuss.
I am tired.

just the begining

2007-07-08T11:20:00.000-07:00

Well here I go...um...ok. I just finished four episodes of Supernanny on DVD and I feel armed with some tools to put into effect with my little one and some things I am going to try to change about me as wellgulpwish me luck.